What are the quotes that can show Esperanza's low self-awareness at the beginning of The House on Mango Street?

This is of course a very interesting question, because in
some ways, Esperanza shows herself to be very self-aware as regards her situation and
the state of her life. In the very first vignette for example, Esperanza instinctively
understands the sense of shame that she is made to feel when the nun points to her house
saying "You live there?" She is able to process the way that the
nun's words make her feel like "nothing" and also she is mature enough to know that when
her parents say that their house is just "temporary" that this is not the case: "But I
know how these things go."

However, a key theme and aspect
of Esperanza's character that does develop through the novel is her growing sense and
understanding of her own sexuality and sex in general. Note how in the third vignette,
entitled "Boys and Girls," Esperanza shares her very child-like view of the
sexes:

The
boys and the girls live in separate worlds. The boys in their universe and we in ours.
My brothers for example. They've got plenty to say to me and nenny inside the house. But
outside they can't be seen talkign to girls. Carlos and Kiki are each other's best
friend... not ours.

Here we
see that Esperanza presents us with a childish view of the world and the division of the
sexes. As the story progresses and Esperanza grows up, we see her increasing awareness
of sex and her own sexuality as she sees her friends engaging in sexual relations in
"The Monkey Garden" and then has her first painful sexual experience herself in "Red
Clowns." Also, note how her maturity is developed through watching how other women
marry, have children and then find themselves tied to the house and their husbands, and
the way that domestic abuse is shown to be part of a woman's experience. This of course
leads to Esperanza's powerful and oft-quoted declaration about her own identity as a
woman and what she wants for herself:

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...but I have decided not to grow up tame like
the others who lay their necks on the threshold waiting for the ball and
chain.

Nowhere else I feel is
Esperanza's movement from innocence and lack of self-awareness to maturity and
self-awareness shown so powerfully than in this quote. Esperanza deliberately chooses to
reject the expected life that other women on Mango Street follow and to strike out on
her own.